Thursday, March 19, 2009

YAY!!!

I have so much to say, but I will keep this simple...WE ARE PREGNANT!

Monday, March 2, 2009

I'm Completely Freaking!

Ok, so, I am not one to over-react (yeah right) but I just got the travel confirmation from our agency for our lovely carrier and her bff. So, I was reading through it, which is something I NEVER do...that is Brian's job. I make sure everyone is emotionally ok, I make sure the bff books Dr. Phil, I make sure we have tickets to "Chelsea Lately." Brian is business and I am emotions. Something told me to look at the itinerary. So...I did.



Ok, can you say DOUCHE! All together now...D-O-U-C-H-E! How can one person mess up so much??? No, seriously, the lady from the clinic had to book the travel arrangements. Her ONLY job. Did she do it correctly...NO!



So, the ladies are flying an airline I would not let my DOG fly on. They are staying at a posh hotel (tres chic, which I like) but not the one we previously discussed (the one where we are in adjoining rooms...the one where they have two beds this time, not just the one). Oh, and they booked them a rental car...but why? Neither woman WANTS to drive in LA, and can you blame them? Oh, I also forgot to mention...the flight they are supposedly on, you know, on the worse-than-dog-crap airline, is flying out of Nashville. Um, so, the ladies are to drive 2 hours to take a flight???

I just spoke to our carrier. She is fine with leaving from Nashville, ok with a car (G-d only knows why) but not excited about different hotels or the airline. Now, if it were my child...oh wait, it is...I would change the flight and book the same hotel. Hmmm, theirs is nicer, maybe an upgrade for us?

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

And we keep trying...

So here we go again...

The first attempt did not work. I was on the floor listening to the news and than began balling. What was I to do?

So, our egg donor told us that she had to wait until March to try again. O...K...Fine, another 3 months. Well, my friends, it IS coming up. Only 2 more months.

Today we heard that she is ready to start her shots again.

Well, this experience has taught me that I DEFINITELY want to be a daddy. Also, I have more patience than I would have thought.

Ok, short blog...sorry.

Monday, September 15, 2008

Changes are good...right?

It was a rough full week at a new school, so I decided to join my colleagues from Elkin for a few cervezas Friday evening. Things did not start well...one of the buses I am in charge of at my school was held up due to the policewoman's funeral, so I stayed until 4:15ish. I made it to the bar by 4:45 and saw so many smiling happy faces. I really miss my Elkin family!

Then, the drama began...

Our fertility clinic called telling me that the egg donor was ready for retrieval. She went on Sunday morning and had her ultrasound, and we found out that she has to have her eggs harvested on Tuesday (tomorrow). That means that 3 to 5 days later, Brian and I need to be there to decide which eggs get implanted into our carrier. Thus, we will be leaving Thursday to go to LA to meet with the clinic. We will stay there for a week, decided on which eggs and making sure our gestational carrier is feeling well.

This was a surprise, as it was a few days earlier than we had anticipated and last minute airfare changes are costly. However, now we will be there for a week, hopefully will be able to see some friends, and-cross your fingers-will begin the 9/10 month process to becoming daddies.

Wish us luck!

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

Murphy's Law

Oh...I can't remember the exact wording, but it is something like, "Whatever can go wrong, will go wrong" or, as Wikipedia suggests..."Whatever can go wrong will go wrong, and at the worst possible time, in the worst possible way."

I was getting excited about the baby. My dog, Captain, had just turned 2. Brian and I were planning our summer vacation...a cruise, our first. My mom was healthy.

So, first, mom gets diagnosed with breast cancer and has treatments. Later, we learn that she may have to have woman parts removed due to side effects and further cancer possibilities. I want to cry.

Next, my puppy (ok, he is 2) lands wrong and tears his ACL. The surgery is expensive and ends our summer vacation plans. No cruise for us, after all. Because of Captain's constant pain before the first surgery, after, before the second round, the second surgey, and still today, I want to cry.

I hate crying, so I don't. I guess it is something I have learned over years of heartache and misery. Life makes you want to cry sometimes.

Then, I go to the doctor for routine tests and I have a petit mal seizure, right there, in the hospital chair. I am fine now. I learned it can happen to me if I am around strobe lights. Ok, no more late night clubbing. I don't cry, but I feel the saltiness form in my eyes.

Another incident that I care not to share...and in the shower, I ball my eyes out and hope the water washes away the tears, which it does.
I cried...damn!

Finally, today, I get word that things are just not going to work out with our surrogate. I have had it. I can not hold in feelings anymore. I have no voice from allergies, I sound like a frog, and I feel like crap...and I have teared up on 2 seperate occassions in one day. I just feel life is not working out the way I had hoped. No, I did not say planned, because I through out most of my childhood "plans" years ago. I have to say...
LIFE SUCKS!!!

Monday, January 21, 2008

LA- Part 2

Before I even start off with day 2, let me just say that the hotel room did not have a shower curtain and the guy had to klepto it from another room. How odd is that???
Ok…back to the story…after breakfast, we headed to Pacific Fertility Clinic. It was not that far from the hotel. When we got there, we check in and went right back to meet the doctor. Dr. S is very funny. I call him Dr. Suresh because I can't remember his full name, but…whatevs. He went over the whole IVF process. He showed us the needles the girls use to inject their medication and the devices he uses to retrieve eggs and implant the embryos. He told us that the female reproductive system is one big waste. Women are born with millions of eggs and slowly get rid of them-wasting them once a month. Interesting.
After our meeting, we headed to the waiting room and drank water so we could do our urine test. After a few cups, I was ready to go. As more time passed, I really had to go. Brian was called back first and I told him to ask them if I could please take the test soon. About 20 minutes later, I FINALLY was able to relieve myself. Then, I had to get blood work done. Usually, one would only have to give 4 to 5 vials of blood taken-as Brian had. But, NO, I have to be Jewish. The "Jewish Panel" as they call it, is 7 additional vials of blood…so I had 11 vials of blood. And we're not talking about the small ones. I had to sit for awhile after the blood. Then, off to the "Oval Office," as it was labeled, for sperm donation. Not impressed. You would think, knowing what a guy was doing in there, that it would be a lot nicer. There was a vinyl Queen Anne-shaped couch with a cloth covering it and a disposable sheet to sit on. The video collection was not that vast…I was looking at the titles, and then I realized that other men have probably touched their peepers before touching the videos and then had to go was my hands again. Brian was in before me, so whatever video he used would just have to do.
After that, we had to get a quick physical and the doc said we could leave…so we did.
After getting back to the hotel, literally 5 minutes later, my cell rang and it was the clinic saying we left too early and still had to meet with the financial lady. So we have to go back tomorrow.
Because of the time we finally got to bed and the early wake-up, we took a 2-hour nap. When I finally got up, I showered again and soon after, Kelly was there. We went to lunch at the Saddle Ranch, which had a mechanical bull-so cool. We had our waitress put Leighton on the bull before we left and took a pic of him.
Next, we drove out to Santa Monica. We took the scenic route-beautiful. Finally, we were at the Promenade and went window shopping. Lee met us for dinner and we went back to the hotel and off to bed.

Egg Donor...Take 2

I know I still have yet to post the additional information about California, but we just got off the phone with a new egg donor, Laura, and we really liked her. She was actually our second choice the first time, so hopefully she will work out!